After I finally decided that it was okay to let go of the last love, I met another. Now I know I sound like a person who just runs from guy to guy to guy, but in all honesty I was looking for love & passion and for something that would last longer than high school career. He was broken. So beyond what I ever thought I knew as damaged. He had already had a family with someone else. He had two older kids 11 & 10 when I met them but 11 and almost 10 when he told me about them. Anyways he told me how things didn’t work out with their mother because she started going out with her friends more instead of being a mom to her kids. I was in shock about it as I seen what he looked like and couldn’t imagine it was easy for someone to just LET HIM GO.. I know I can’t let him go, not without a fight. Anyways, I seen pictures and thought wow okay, so this guy is hot, 12 years older than me, already knows what he wants and the only flaw is that hes damaged??? Say no more here I come to the rescue! My heart screamed with fear because what in the world did I think I was doing trying to repair someone else when I myself am still trying to repair from the damage I caused to myself by holding onto the wrong person. But he made it perfectly clear that he wasn’t trying to pursue anything more than what we were doing which at the time was only talking and getting aquatinted. Well about a month after I met him in person.. we had sex. And oh was it the best sex of my life.. I’m not much for bragging about that kind of stuff with just anyone but when its good.. its good.. not only was this man hot, sweet, and 100% available.. he knew how to please a woman.. he has definitely explored the inner workings of a womans vagina and all the little places for possible orgasms.. I had 4 in the baseball dugout that night. After that night though I swear I started blaming myself for all the events that happened after this.. He ghosted me for 2 months, he wouldn’t hang out with me even though we lived in the same city, he just disappeared and I thought it was because he was an extremely hot guy who was only looking for a one time piece of ass.. I really wanted to hide away from the world and just not tell anyone that I had fallen for this guy & his sex game and I was never going to have it again.. but Christmas Eve he hit me up, asked if I had plans, I didn’t so he asked if I wanted to hang out and I asked him if he wanted to come over. He spent the night with me for the first time and oh my that sex game was even better the second time.. We became inseperable after that. That’s the messy beginning to us but it’s the greatest beginning that has ever happened to me. I feel in love with this sexy 34 year old man with good sex game.. I’d fall in love with him a million times over.